Renovate

Definition:  To fix up, modernize.

It's not a mystery that I lose focus from time to time.  I believe in the wicked powers of adult onset ADD every single day.  It's shocking that I can even get through a day sometimes, with all my brain cells picking a different focal point every five seconds.

I have 70 competition forms I have to enter today.  They take about 5-10 minutes each to enter, and they are currently laughing at me now.

Mocking me, really.

But, even though I recognize this disability (and it is) in myself, my old brain - trusty old faithful - is constantly trying to drag me back to the heart of the matter.

The words.  The reason I'm even here writing.

Sometimes I get so off track and think 'I have nothing to blog about,' when all I have to do is pick a word.  It really doesn't have to be this difficult.  I get so stuck in creating drama and bad feelings, never realizing that I chose them to begin with.

So renovate is my word today.  What do I want to renovate (fix up, modernize)?  Well, everything.  My life, my blog, my reason for writing.  Last night I watched Sex and the City for about two hours, and it reminded me of why I wanted to start this in the first place.  The show was so brilliant in defining friendship, women's issues, and love, and I realized that this is when I'm happiest, writing for you, and maybe I just needed to modernize it a little.  A make-over never hurt anyone.

I hope you enjoy some of the changes to come, and maybe even try to renovate a part of your life too.

Happy Sunday!