Bright Side

This is one of those weeks - weekends, really - that shines a light on the fact that I am not where I should be in life.  And it's not just a light... it's one of those mega spotlights that car dealerships will use to draw in customers.  This weekend proves that I am still making choices based on what others need instead of what I need.

And boy am I pissed off.

Now, I know I have absolutely no one to be pissed off at other than myself, but that's not comforting me at this time.  I literally don't know what to do with the anger anymore, and I know, I know this might be the most ungrateful post ever written, but the only outlet I can think of is to write.

I know once the words start flowing, I'll be able to see the other side of this and know that there might be a bright side (other than the mega spotlight shining on my issues).

So, in my post-show brain haze, I was asked if I could work this weekend because everyone took it off on their availability (including myself).  Being the sucker I am, I said yes, not realizing it was Mother's Day weekend.  (If you see a bright side to this, please leave it in the comments.)  

I took today off, hoping for so much... gardening, running, lunching on the roof at El Az, but God has other plans and thought a little rain might make me stronger.

Don't worry, I know it's not all about me, but for the sake of this post, let's pretend it is.

It's damp and cold out when the rest of the week has been sunny and 70... literally.  Where is the fair in that?  Well, there is none, but it is not going to break me.  The rain is making the ground better for gardening another day, running would just make me tired, and lunch can be relocated.

It's who you're lunching with that counts anyways.

And I get to write, which is something I've been procrastinating with all week.  

As for this weekend-o-work?  Well, I may have to be present there, but by no means to I intend to "work."  I have a couple creative projects that need some attention, and I will find a way to get through it.  

Maybe there is a bright side, since I wouldn't find any creativity if I were home all weekend.  Maybe this is a good thing, right?

I know, I'm not buying it either, but it's the best I can do.  

Little do they know I'll be running Mother's Day Specials on Sunday :)

I wish you all a beautiful Mother's Day Weekend, and if you read this send me a funny text on Sunday to help me get through the day.