Believe

 Yesterday was one of those days that literally changes the course of your life.  You wake up with the same problems, the same gripes and complaints, and then you are given news that flips it all upside down.

When you hear of someone with cancer you immediately think the worst and wonder how they will handle it.   A lot of people cling to the word hope at times like this, but I don't like that word.  It implies that something like faith has been lost, and I think this is the time when most people cling to their faith.  It's as if we almost forget about it till times of need.

I don't want to hope for a better future, a better outcome, a life saved.  I want to believe in it as if it were already true.  I think that's what faith is for... a belief that everything is as it should be.  Even if it sucks.  

 There has to be a reason for things like this, but it's not ours to understand.  I think that at then end of it all, we will have that understanding, but for now we just need to have faith an believe.  

words can be so powerful

set your timer: For the next 15 minutes, write about a moment your life changed because of what someone said to you.

I will never forget the first time I saw this video by Kelly Corrigan, and to this day I will never tire from watching it. I was going through one of the toughest times I can remember...the year I turned 40. There were so many negative things going on in my life and I didn't have a clue as to how to save myself. I remember sitting in the doctor's office and crying as she hugged me.

That's how bad things were.

And then I saw this video and I knew things would get better eventually. I knew I had to just get up and go on with another day, trying to find something to cling to, and I did. I can't even tell you how many times I watched this video over and over again, and when her book, The Middle Place, came out I was delighted to find that a copy of this essay is printed in the back. So now I can read it too.
My friends have always meant the world to me, and the fact that losing a friend was able to tear me down so far speaks volumes to me. Today I looked through all the emails from that dreaded time of my life, and I am realizing that I am in such a better place in my life now, for so many reasons, but mostly because I moved on. I let go and moved into what was best for me. I am certain that I will never let anyone create so much havoc in my life ever again.

I know what works for me.

I know what makes me happy.

And I'm not afraid to ask for it anymore.

If you've seen the video before, I hope you enjoy it again.
To Kelly Corrigan... you saved me at a time when I needed it most, and for that, I thank you.