I've had one of those days.
One of those days when I wonder what the hell kind of life plan is this when I have to miss not one, but two of Blake's games because of work. I literally had that thought of 'Is this really what I want people to remember me by... work?
My answer is no. I have had one of the longest days thinking about life and what it is all supposed to mean, and if I will give one rat's ass what my numbers were for learn to skate in the winter of 2013 when I'm on my death bed. My answer is no, just in case you're wondering. But I'm guessing you already knew that by now. I'm pretty sure you were just waiting patiently for me to figure it out on my own.
I was sent pictures, texts, tweets, and phone calls today to keep me in the loop (and I am grateful!), but it will never even come close to being there. This is the second tournament they've won this year that I haven't been to... if you've lost track. It breaks my heart, even though I know Blakey is just fine without me there.
Yesterday, they lost their first game 2-1, and was probably their 4th loss all season... if that. The boys were frustrated, and quite frankly pissed off. My thought was, even though I would have loved to see them win, a loss is sometimes what you need to make your team stronger. You have to know what your mistakes are to be able to fix them.
In the game of life, today was a loss for me. I am frustrated and pissed off, however I can see more clearly what I need to change to make me a better person and mom. I can see more clearly a picture of what I want my life to be about because I had to go through today. I know that this day isn't what my life is going to be about and at any point I can change the game plan for more success.
I am seriously hoping you all had a better day than mine :) Maybe not as good as these guys, but good none the less...
Have a great week!
Xoxo
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