unmotivated

It is beyond me why, after the most motivating day of the entire year (every year), I am left here feeling a little lost and a LOT unmotivated.

It's almost as if this Christmas break is like the movie Groundhog Day, and it.  will.  never.  end.  The walls are closing in on me, and this morning I opted out of going to work right away, so I can enjoy a moment of peace in my own home.

I know it's selfish.
I know I sound like a brat.
I know 'family time' should be sacred.  And it might be if we could find our Yatzee game.

But all I want is to be left alone.

Evan and I snuggled with Goldie

I have to admit I'm a little jealous of those families that can sit down and watch a movie together, or circle around the Wii and play all night.  We're just not like that and not sure we ever were.  Toby is good at the video games, and I'm better at board games.  Toby likes sports on TV, and I like to read.  The closest thing we've come to family gathering lately is Evan and I watching Prison Break on the laptop.

Not exactly Norman Rockwell.

I know, I know, I'm just looking for things to be wrong instead of living in the moment.  I know I'm just a little anxious because of all the down time with the kids.  I know there is no real normal, and going with the flow is essential at this point in our lives.

And yet... that crazy invisible beast from Lost follows me, reminding me I'm lost.

So, if you came here today looking for inspiration, I simply don't have it.  You're going to have to revel in that 'misery loves company' feeling you'll get from this post, and simply know you're not alone in this crazy-long-Christmas-Break world.

Now go out there and get yourself a Biggby or Starbucks (way cuter employees btw), because you deserve it today.  Actually, we deserve it every day, but who could afford that?

Have a fabulous weekend!!